Wednesday, October 31, 2012

Happy All Hallows Eve

I can see why the All Hallows Eve got changed into the zippier sounding Halloween.

We were sitting out on the porch, watching the sky turn pink, when two horses and a pony showed up. They were taking their people trick-or-treating. I didn't even mind when the gorgeous pony walked through my landscaping. (or what might pass as landscaping someday) It's great to live in a town where you might be spontaneously visited by horses.

We were enjoying the warm weather but noticed that none of the kids would come to our house for candy while we were sitting there. So we went inside.

There were still little kids who wouldn't come up the walk even with a grown-up urging them on. Maybe we could make a little money renting out the house for a horror flick someday.

We had 94 trick-or-treaters or, as I like to call them, Halloweenies, this year.

It was spookier when we had bats in the attic.

Tuesday, October 30, 2012

Zombie Night is Almost Here

After years of having no trick-or-treaters in Boulder, we moved to Longmont. This is an old-fashioned neighborhood so, last year, I expected to have some kids at the door as opposed to none. Sadly, I ran out of candy after 60 kids. So this year I'm prepared. I have enough candy for 120 kids. I think it's overkill but I can add the leftovers to the Thanksgiving festivities. I also found out that peanut butter cups can be frozen and I have a lot of extras. The moon is slightly past full so the mood will be just right. I'm hoping for zombies.

I watched the news about the monster storm back east in the early morning, then went out to the ranch to meet with the farrier and got a little sunburned. It's hard to believe we're having such nice weather at the end of October. I haven't even fallen into my seasonal depression of dread about winter's approach. (yet)

A young woman from the ranch just had twins...a boy and a girl. She named them Peyton and Buster. And I recently found out a young member of our family is expecting. She's a Pokemon fan so we're worried the baby will be named Pikachu.

Babies are nice to have around.



Sunday, October 28, 2012

15 Items or Else

I was in the grocery store and had fewer items than usual but a lot more than 15. I was in a regular line when the supervisor directed me to use the 15 Items or Less lane. Always obedient, I went into the lane and unloaded my groceries, but I could tell the checkout lady was upset. Meanwhile, a man with even more stuff than me was sent over by the same supervisor. He was clearly embarrassed when a person with a few items in his hands got in line behind us.

I tried to joke with the unhappy woman at the register, but she was not going to cheer up. "If she sends them over, I have to check them out. Doesn't matter how much stuff they have, I'm not supposed to say anything," she said. So much for discretion, I thought.  I told her it was embarrassing to be the one with too many items but, after all, it was an employee who told me to get in this line. I should have just been quiet because she was quickly being overwhelmed by the injustice of the situation.

This made me remember the relative who thought I was a rule-breaker. Here I am fretting about being in the express lane-breaking bad!

When I talked to my daughter, she reminded me a similar thing had happened to her father-in-law.
He was in a grocery store and was sent to the express lane even though he had a cart of groceries. In his  case, the customer behind him objected. After trying to explain that it wasn't his idea to use that line, he tried to ignore the man. He was putting his groceries in his trunk when the same man approached and sprayed mace in his face. They never caught the guy. Rolling around on the ground with a face full of mace is an extreme price to pay for getting in that line.

I'm prepared now for the next time. When I'm told to use the express lane, I'm going to shout, "Try and make me!"

Saturday, October 27, 2012

Rumi

Rumi was a Persian poet who lived from 1207 until 1273, and is widely read in translation today. I've heard of him but never looked into his story.

I was in a thrift store and found a copy of The Essential Rumi. I wasn't terribly interested but opened the book to have a look around. The first thing I saw was a poem called The Three Fish. Within the poem  was the stanza:

      "A certain man used to say the wrong prayer
      for the wrong hole. He'd say the nose-prayer
      when he splashed his behind. Can the odor of heaven
      come from our rumps? Don't be humble with fools.
      Don't take pride into the presence of a master."

So I bought the book.

When you read the stanza before this one, it makes sense in context and is not as humorous. But this is how I find out about new things in life. A twig leads to a branch. The branch connects to the trunk but there are many large and small branches to explore along the way. Then there's the bark to think about and the leaves. This could turn into metaphor hell before I get down to the roots....And then there's the water and sunshine to consider, so this could evolve into some kind of connectedness rant.




   

Thursday, October 25, 2012

Awake

I've been slightly unhealthy for the last five days but nothing obvious to the casual observer, (always loved that phrase-as if anyone would ever observe me) but obvious to me. After ignoring the symptoms, I finally gave in and took multiple naps today. Now it's the appropriate time to sleep and I'm awake.

It's snowing right now. The morning commute won't be fun, but I have sexy new snow tires to show off. A Frankenstorm is being predicted for the east coast. We have some badass storms in Colorado but nothing freaky, franken-wise.

Thanks to late-night television, I now know that there is coffee called the Black Ivory Blend from Thailand. The blend is made from coffee beans that are eaten by elephants then excreted. Their handlers then pick the beans out of the dung and dry them in the sun. The cost for this delightful coffee is $1,100 per kilogram. If elephants aren't your thing, you can also buy coffee that has traveled the digestive system of a civet, a tree-dwelling animal. I think my holiday shopping is going to be easy this year.

Wednesday, October 24, 2012

Wet Heavy Snow

As the title would suggest, it's snowing the mucky heavy stuff. Good-bye lovely fall colors.

I'm hooked on the British television show: Sherlock. Now I find out there are only six episodes produced so far. A few more are planned for 2013. Is it my imagination or are these television producers getting lazy?

 I now have the perfect reading combination. Telegraph Avenue by Chabon, and Every Love Story is a Ghost Story: A Life of David Foster Wallace, by D.T. Max. Quality stuff and tomorrow is a gloomy day, perfect for reading.

I need to finish up the river trip stuff. Unfortunately, I have become aware that the scant few people reading the posts seem to think it sounded like we were having a terrible time. This was not the case, so it can only be my faulty use of the English language. (I'm so embarrassed.) We were all having an awesome time. It just isn't the kind of happy that can be described with the big important happy words, but more with soft happy words like peaceful, serene, tranquil, inspiring, and we were usually in the  jaw-dropping presence of amazing geologic beauty. Reconnecting with nature after living in the Borg collective is quite a shock at first, then it starts to feel really comfortable. I'll try to be more effusive in the future, both in word and deed.


Sunday, October 21, 2012

Sunday at the Cabin

Today was a beautiful fall day. The colors have been extraordinary this year. The drive up the canyon, alongside the Poudre River, was restful but the river was the lowest I've ever seen. There are black muck beaches (from the forest fire debris), but the water looked clear this time. There were old RVs heading into the mountains, which can only mean that it's deer season in Colorado.

Some of our cabin neighbors have done some repair work on our road, which I very much appreciate, but our own area is still a mess. We took ten filled sandbags, at fifty pounds each, and forty empty sandbags to fill with the grit packed around the cabin. Steve used a combination of sandbags and plywood to protect the main door, and covered up the one window that could break if there's another flash flood. We put sandbags in a couple of areas to divert the water away from the cabin, then called it a day.

I have submissions from the writing group to critique and will be having my own pages critiqued as well. I felt like I'd been to fight club after my last submission so I'm not looking forward to the experience this time. Even so, the group is one of the things I enjoy. It's diverse and we have some interesting talent attending these days. Makes it all worth while.


Saturday, October 20, 2012

Mercury Cafe

My good friend, SJ, got her flash fiction published in the latest issue of Fast Forward, and tonight was the Denver publication event.  We headed to downtown Denver to the Mercury Cafe for the readings. Whenever we go there, I wonder why we don't go more often. It's a unique and inviting place in a highly questionable neighborhood, and how many one-of-a-kind places are there amid the epidemic of chain restaurants?
There were some good stories and a happy crowd. A good time was had by all.

Wednesday, October 17, 2012

Whack-a-Doo

I've been rewriting a short story that concerns a crazy homeless dude. There are references to the "DIA Conspiracy" in it. Some people used to think I made up all these stories about DIA, using my awesome creativity but, alas, people more creative (and crazier) than me made it all up and, even better,believe their stories are truth.

What am I babbling about? These 'conspiracy theorists' believe things like: Our Denver International Airport has a concentration camp beneath it. Wait! It gets a lot better. There are underground bunkers and Queen Elizabeth is one of the investors. The runways are in the pattern of a swastika. I love the theory that DIA is going to be the headquarters of the Illuminati/Masons/New World Order or a FEMA concentration camp, or it is connected to underground cities populated by beings from outer space. Don't even get me started on the satanic and phallic symbols in the murals and other places. There are so many interpretations about everything at the airport, including the size, shape, building materials, uses for the trains, location, etc., that I can't name them all.

It's worth going to the website with the photos because there's a great photo of my favorite horse statue (known around here as 'Blucifer') that you see every time you arrive at the airport.

I'll include some of the many links to this odd phenomena. I think the whole subject is crying out for someone to do their psychology thesis paper the airport and its mythology-if that's the correct, polite term for Whack-a-doo.

http://usahitman.com/dia-conspiracy/




Tuesday, October 16, 2012

Bookstores

The squirrels are frantically gathering food for winter, and putting on extra weight at the same time. I have a similar compulsion but I gather reading material. Books. Amazingly, the more I read, the more weight I gain. One of my sisters is visiting and she also loves reading. We've been to the wonderful, chaotic Black & Read Bookstore in Arvada, then went to the equally wonderful, but orderly, Boulder Book Store today. Both are independents.

By going through the shelves and boxes of books in the Black & Read, I found Mambo Hips and Make Believe by Wanda Coleman. I've never heard of her but she is considered "The Unofficial Poet Laureate of Los Angeles" and was a finalist for the position of California Poet Laureate. You have to go to the used bookstores to find the unusual books.

I'm loving Wanda Coleman's novel and will read her poetry soon. Check her out at:

<http://www.poetryfoundation.org/bio/wanda-coleman>


Friday, October 12, 2012

Devilish Time of Year

The subject of Satan has come up in the writing group I attend. These references are usually humorous but, to my surprise, are sometimes quite serious. It's been a long time since I've met someone who believes in the literal existence of the devil, but now I have.

"There are two equal and opposite errors into which our race can fall about the devils. One is to disbelieve in their existence. The other is to believe, and to feel an excessive and unhealthy interest in them. They themselves are equally pleased by both errors and hail a materialist or a magician with the same delight."
-C.S. Lewis, The Screwtape Letters

I describe my spiritual beliefs as being cafeteria style. A dab of zen, a big helping of Catholic architecture to put me in the mood, some gospel music, reincarnation-why not?, ....you get the picture. I'm covering my bases and don't expect it to matter one bit when I shuffle off this mortal coil.

I don't believe in the devil, but I have no trouble believing in the existence of evil.

"We have met the enemy and he is us."
Pogo (Walt Kelly)

Peace.





Wednesday, October 10, 2012

I Hate Smiley Faces but...

At coffee the other day, the discussion turned to smiling, specifically the opinion that Americans smile too much and are often insincere while doing so. I've been reading a book written by a psychologist and smiles were discussed in a very positive light, so I was thinking it's good to live in a country where people like to smile. Dentistry and the teeth whitening industry would suffer terribly without our smiles, both sincere and insincere.

Research indicates that smiling:

  • Boosts your immune system. Even a fake smile causes your body to release endorphins.
  • Reduces stress.
  • Lowers your blood pressure.
  • And improves people's perception of you. Smiles make you seem confident.

We seem to have a lot to gain by smiling. Besides, dentistry and the teeth whitening industry would suffer terribly without our smiles, both sincere and insincere.

There are 19 types of smiles divided into two categories: "social" and "genuine". The sincere smiles,  are called Duchenne smiles. As for the smiles with the lesser reputation... Herman Melville called a smile, "... the chosen vehicle for all ambiguities." People, unfortunately, don't just smile to show off their dental work. They also smile when they're embarrassed, flirting, scared, or lying. I wonder if the endorphins still get released.

The way we interpret smiles is also influenced by our cultural perspectives. Americans look at the mouth to decide about a person's emotional state, while Japanese people look at eyes. In the wide world, there are too many ways to be ambiguous, and these misunderstandings of each other's body language can be dangerous.






Tuesday, October 9, 2012

Schizo Tuesday

Yesterday was a lovely fall day. Today is an overcast, chilly fall day. I love how schizo it is in Colorado.

The writing group meets tonight. I try to write in one form or another every day. Writing doesn't have to be just fiction, emails, letters, journals, ranting in the newspaper, blogging, and it sure as hell doesn't have to be nothing but Facebook crapola. Write cafeteria-style. A little of this and a dab of that every day. When I think about all the solid ways to work writing into your life, the list is long. After trying to name the different ways to approach journaling, I sat slackjawed in awe. (a common condition, possibly genetic in nature)

I make lists. Lots of lists. It's a form of disposable journaling, in a way. There's probably a medication for list-writing that I should be taking in heavy doses. I used to write lots of letters. The real kind with a stamp. I'm down to two regular correspondents now. Sad that people have time for bad television and social networking but they can't spend 15 minutes writing something tangible and lasting.

What I want to do is finish my book. I have all the body parts on the table but I can't get them assembled into the creature I want. Frankenbook. Frankenbecky. Frankenfuckit. Did I ever mention that I swear? It's a disgusting habit that only death will cure.

If you're a writer, then write. Do it because it'll make us both happy.

Monday, October 8, 2012

Day Four on the Green River

Another group, with a commercial outfitter, camped on the far end of our sandbar last night. It felt intrusive particularly with the potty issue.

People using the river are required to carry all of their waste out with them. This is leave-no-trace camping. I went down part of the Colorado in the Grand Canyon in the 70s. There was human waste and flies everywhere. It was almost as much poop as you'd see while walking down a sidewalk in Milan. (a different story) Things don't biodegrade in the desert climate, so it takes a flood to wash away anything that doesn't belong there. I don't mind the requirement to carry a toilet that can be sealed up.

When you camp next to the river there are several things to consider. The mouth of a canyon or drainage has the potential for flash flooding so that's never done. Mud is a consideration since you have to unload and load the canoe and the stuff is heavy. (The toilet is heavy to begin with but it gets heavier and heavier with each passing day.) Dry sand or rock is good to camp on. If possible, a campsite should be in a wide area so there's lots of morning sun. Cold deserts, like the Colorado Plateau, have extremes of temperatures, often in the same 24-hour period. There needs to be enough space, obviously, and a beautiful view makes it all worthwhile.

So our steel/aluminum (?) toilet is a box with a lid. When the seal is removed, a toilet seat is put on. It is often in plain view of god and everyone. I carry an umbrella for creating the turtle effect. If I can't see you then I can pretend you can't see me. So sharing a sandbar with strangers does make using the toilet more awkward.

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No sun until the afternoon on Day Four. I know it's becoming repetitious, but it rained on us again. But it was a light rain that persisted. The water looked lovely with the drops dimpling the surface, and the sound was soft and soothing. The absence of wind made a big difference. The best part of the rain were the waterfalls. A rare occurrence and much appreciated. The desert has to gather up a lot of raindrops to  get enough to send a waterfall down to the river.

There were large paw prints in the sand during one of our rest stops today. Coyote? Where there are deer, there are usually coyote, and we've been seeing deer.

We stopped a little earlier when we found a sandbar with a view. But that part of the canyon was in shade by 3:30 then a breeze kicked up. It was pretty chilly. 

Camp was by the Hey Joe Uranium Mine so there's a road behind the campsite but it's behind a thick stand of dead tamarisks and willows. The mine is probably not being worked right now. I should have taken pictures so I could share what passes for a road in Utah. 

We're at the beginning of Labyrinth Canyon now. The walls are much higher and dramatic.

Saturday, October 6, 2012

Snowflakes Make Me Want to Howl


We had our first snow yesterday. It wasn’t much but it put me in the mood to prepare for winter. After a long, unusually hot summer I thought I was looking forward to some cold weather, but it turns out I’m still not in the mood.

Part of this morning was set aside for purchasing snow tires for my car. There is no pleasure in paying for something like this, but I’m sure going to feel better on the freeway when I have to drive in Colorado’s insane traffic. When the money aquifer refills, my car needs a brake job, then a new battery. Lots of money but still cheaper than car payments.

Then I took part in the Colorado tradition of mobbing the grocery store at the first sign of a snowflake. I was lazy this week about shopping so I needed a lot of stuff. I should have waited until there was a Broncos game on television. The stores are almost empty then.

 I’ve decided to reread “Howl” by Alan Ginsberg and ordered a cheap copy through Amazon. It’ll arrive on Tuesday. I love to have something to look forward to. That makes me the donkey chasing the carrot dangling from a stick. Luckily, I respect donkeys.

Friday, October 5, 2012

Is it Tuesday? Green River: Day Three

Moab is my favorite town, with approximately 5,000 residents, located in a beautiful setting close to Arches National Park and Canyonlands National Park. There are multiple coffee places and bakeries, bookstores, ice cream, good restaurants, and gift shops. The grocery store is large and well-stocked and the hardware stores are entertaining. On the down side, hotels keep being built along a highway already choked with semis and tour buses. A local guide told me he knows when tourist season is over when he can cross the main street without running for his life.

Day Three
I learned not to hesitate when getting in or out of the kayak. I gave up and put a leash on my paddle and secured it to the boat. The cord is annoying as it drips and tickles my legs but not as annoying as trying to kayak without a paddle. I quit wearing my tevas and went barefoot. It is easier that way to rinse some of the mud off my feet to keep the kayak cleaner, but I swear the mud is mixed with some kind of dinosaur glue. I know there must be a reason the inside of the kayak is a brilliant white, but it will never actually be clean again. Ever.

When the sun came up, Tuesday morning, somewhere behind the clouds, we realized the fish were feeding along the banks of the river. A lot of the fish turned out to be bubbles escaping from the sand but a few fish were visible and real. It rained a lot the night before but we had good tents and the sand didn't stay wet for long. It was hard to believe this kind of weather was happening after the brutal drought the west has endured this past year. Despite the heavy cloud cover,  the red cliff behind us was illuminated briefly when the sun first rose above the horizon.

We saw several deer while camping there. They must be attracted to whatever is being grown at the ranch across the river. We haven't seen any other people on the river so far.

Later in the Day
Blasting friggin' wind kept up all day again. We saw double rainbows, though, and finally a partial third. Enjoyed guacamole, chips, and salami as we stood on a sandbar and watched the sky north of us. There was thunder and lightning in the distance. 

Lots of people were on the river today. More than I've ever seen on any of our trips. Ruby Ranch is a good place to put in on the river and that may account for the sudden influx of people. I wouldn't bother going all the way to the town of Green River again. We're still getting stuck in low water sometimes but not very often. The riffles caused by the wind make it even harder to read the river.

The scenery in the canyon is becoming more dramatic. Whenever we come to the steep cliffs bordering the river, we slow down and drift along so we can take it all in. Our favorite activity is to hold the three boats together and break out the snack bag and cooler and drift with the current while gazing up at the canyon walls.

We picked out a large sandbar opposite a lovely canyon two-miles south of Three Canyon for our camp. Our tents were set up and the firewood gathered before the front hit. Cooking was difficult in the heavier rain and wind. This was our coldest night but we were still comfortable and well-fed.

The bottom lands are often named. My favorite one is named "June's Bottom".


Thursday, October 4, 2012

Green River: Day Two

There are a lot of things I didn't write about the trip at first. Like how embarrassing it is to try to get out of a kayak when you're old, fat, and totally out of shape.

The work of unloading the supplies from the trailer on the first day wore me out. Handing over the stuff to be loaded into the canoe wore me out even more. The heat took its toll. Walking to the restroom for one last normal visit just about finished me off. Then I had to push the kayak out into the water, mud sucking at my feet, and try to figure out why my center of gravity is so low. (You don't have to tell me. I figured it out) I got one foot into the kayak, dropped my ass into the seat, then tried to bend my leg enough to get it inside with the rest of me. (Houston, we have a problem.) I had to use both hands to pull my leg to my chest, as the kayak began drifting in the current. I almost lost my paddle, got my foot into the boat, and tried to look casual. I didn't fall into the river or swamp the boat. Victory! Five minutes later, I'm stuck on the first sandbar of the day. I had to get out in the mud (always mud), not lose the boat that can float now that it's free of my weight, get back into the deeper water, and repeat all the earlier steps for getting into the cockpit. I think it was 10 or 15 minutes before I got stuck again, but it was not as easy now that the wind was blowing straight at us.

Day Two
We found a campsite on good rock above a bend in the river. My neck and shoulders were screaming. My hands ached from gripping the paddle with a death grip, just like the one I use when holding the steering wheel while on the freeway. The canoes had to be unloaded completely each night. We used the very heavy water jugs to anchor our tents in case of a high wind. Trickster desert at play.

There was a melon ranch across the river. (Ruby Ranch) The irrigation pumps, voices, engines, and a dog barking punctuated the sounds of the wind and the river. A block of white house rose incongruously above the crops.

We worked hard to paddle against lots of strong wind all day. Tiring. We had rain, thunder, lightning, heat, wind-blown waves, riffles, shallows, rocks, mud, mud, mud, and a surprise dust storm. There were bright blue beetles, lizards, baby toads, ducks, mysterious water birds, crows, and hawks. The sides of the canyons had become taller as we paddled south. One might think the river carved its way deeper into the rock, but it's the rocks pushing upward as the incomprehensible number of years pass. The river changed color often, sometimes several times a day.

It rained off and on all night. The sound the rain made on the tent was delicious. My hair already felt like Astroturf. Still no sign of George and party. They were supposed to be at Mineral Bottom in five days instead of our leisurely six, so they'd have to pass us sometime. Two days of wind put us behind our intended schedule, so they must be running late too. Why were we worrying about George?

We had curry and rice for dinner during a pause in the drizzling rain. I then discovered I hadn't packed any shirts other than the filthy damp tank top and short-sleeve shirt I was wearing. Uh oh. The clean shirts were in the suitcase in the back of the truck in Moab. I could get voted off the river.

As we sat around the fire that night, I thought about all the writing I was planning to do while on vacation. I brought books to finish and a new issue of The Sun magazine. All I actually accomplished was the taking of notes in a notebook I left out in the rain the first night, curling it up nicely. Tomorrow I'll write, I told myself.




Wednesday, October 3, 2012

Green River, Utah Canoe Trip 2012: Day One

We were going to put the two canoes and my kayak in at Crystal Geyser but changed our minds and opted for starting out in the town of Green River at the state park. That would give us an additional four miles and we would see a section of the river we hadn't seen before.

A group of six people, all little older than us, was at the boat ramp when we arrived. They seemed to be discombobulated. They each had an inflatable kayak and gear all over the place. One man, George, came up to me and asked where we were camping that night. I said we'd figure that out later. He then went on to tell me their plans as if to make sure we didn't take their campsites. As he talked, I got the impression, that the others in my group shared, that George was nervous and maybe wanting to join us.

The weather was supposed to be 90 degrees and sunny but we had cloud cover all day. We hit shallow spots before we were out of sight of the state park and then the wind began to blow. It took longer than expected to reach Crystal Geyser because of the wind. And each time we hit a sandbar or rocks, we had to learn all over again how to get out of a canoe or kayak without tipping, and how to get into deeper water and back into the boat. The wind was exhausting

We got out in mucky mud to explore the geyser. Crystal Geyser is an old test well. It's a cold water geyser that erupts sporadically because of pressurized carbon-dioxide gas. The geyser is surrounded by orange travertine. The pipe where the water shoots out of burbles quite a bit, but the odd thing is the heat that appears to rising out in between spurts. I can't find any information about the apparent heat.

Found a nice campsite at mile marker 114 in the light rain. Had Caprese Salad, vegies & dip, and pork adobo with rice for dinner, followed by a lovely fire in our fire pan.

Rained off and on all night. Sometimes it was a hard rain. Not cold outside, just wet. I woke up at 4 A.M. and saw an abundance of beautiful stars.

Not the most exciting first day but there are no bad days on the river.

Tuesday, October 2, 2012

The Green River in Utah

I've been in Moab taking a weeklong canoe trip on the Green River. I'm ready to write about it but I'm still buried under all the gear that needs to be cleaned and put away correctly. The floor of the house is sandy and gritty but there's no point in cleaning up until everything is stowed away. Cleaning out the disgusting coolers and doing the laundry was torturous, but now I'm into the work that is just plain drudgery. So, in order to get started writing again, I'm going to cheat a little bit and go to my journal from 2008. It was interesting to see the frame of mind I was in during that time.


Green River: October 2008

There are huge cracks in the dried mud along the riverbank. If I put my nose down to the opening, the primeval smell rises past the spiderwebs and pale roots. I'm smelling ancient dinosaurs and extinct plants.

Shade graces the canyon with a long caress as the sun cartwheels across the dark blue sky, so blue and hot it radiates a palpable energy upon my skin. I am filled with light.

My expectations are different here in the canyon. I do expect the sun to move across the sky and the lengthening of the cool intervals of shade as the canyon twists and winds its way to the confluence of the Colorado River.  Coming here is another way to access timelessness that is yours alone to explore.
The steady flow of the river reminds me of the river inside each of us. Our own River Stix (forgetfulness) combines, or is absorbed by, the River L (all memories). I tap into my own genetic storehouse of memories, full of sensations, and experience the awakening of my dulled senses. I pack away my vanities. 

I didn't come here to discover new things. I know, from past experience, I can exist here and discovery will happen to me.

The canyon angles one way then another. The only way I can orient myself is to think of downriver as south and the river behind as north, a fallacy that a glance at the map would expose but my brain is still determined to put the world on a grid. Every sunrise and sunset tells me all I need to know and the stars still rotate through the heavens. 

The yellow cottonwood leaves quiver and glow as the setting sun suddenly illuminates the canyon walls opposite our campsite. The leaves flutter like thin gold coins tied to the branches.

There is so much quiet. I have to sit down and listen to discover it's never silent. One night, someone on top of a mesa played a melancholy tune on a trumpet. Somehow, it sounded just right.